Best friends forever?

Like I said in my last post, this friend and I had a lot of scars left from a war that was never won or lost. We both had just surrendered. But now, I guess you could say that battle was lost. Her and I are not friends anymore.

Now, I don't want to go into details into why that happened but all I can say is that I've felt really alone lately. Yeah, I know. I have a lot of friends but no matter how many friends you have, when you give a HUGE part of yourself to someone and they just throw that back in your face, you kind of just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I've cried. A lot more than I thought I would.

Seeing her at school has been the hardest part for me. She glares at me and it seems that a lot of people are. Oh, and the part that hurts the most is that she talks to the one person who really hurt me. The worst part is when she is with him and she sees me, she gives me a huge smirk. That makes me just think, Ow...

She seems to not be able to leave my thoughts. Everyday I just sit and think about all of really fun memories and I just cry.. It hurts more everyday. Sunday will be the anniversary of our friendship being over. I can do this. I was fine without her and I will be fine now.

I have so many great friends surrounding me. Constantly reminding me that they are there for me, and right that's all I need. A simple smile or a friendly gesture. That makes my day, it reminds me how lucky I am.

I know that sometimes life gets hard, I promise I know but all you have to do is smile. It gets better. I'm living proof it does.

A smile is the best kind of revenge,

Dreamer of Rainbows